100 Things About Me...
Friday, January 27, 2006
Again, inspired by my bestest, I went googling for 100 Things About Me and thought it was something interesting. So, here are, I hope...100 Things About Me...
1. My biological mother was white and my father black.
My mother and her hubby were separated when she met my father. After she got pregnant, her hubby wanted her back but did not want a black child, so she put me up for adoption.
2. My adoption was made official a week before Thanksgiving in 1975.
My parents celebrated by going to see Jaws. Subsequently, I was given the nickname of Gumbo or Gums. Please don't ask.
3. Though my parents told me I was adopted at a young age, I never did find out information on my mom until I was 12.
4. I was almost kidnapped when I was about 8 at a friend's father's company picnic.
And a couple years later, the same man came to check a gas leak at my parent's house. Imagine my fear.
5. One of my babysitter's sons liked to have the kids do what I now call weird sexual torture on him.
Again, please do not ask. This is not something that I would want to get into.
6. When I was 5 I had to have an earring surgically removed from my ear.
Starter earrings and I had little stars. The entire star part of the earring went into my ear and could not be removed any other way.
7. I was baptized when I was 11 and I now wonder if that was really God speaking to me or if I made a mistake.
8. My father was a verbally abusive alcoholic.
Irony about that is, he worked for CPS, and would still verbally abuse me.
9. When I was 12 my next door neighbour died of emphysema and it affected me more than I thought it would.
10. I developed a really irrational and deep rooted fear of death and dying when I was 12 that I refused to go anywhere, including school.
11. I was put into a mental hospital when I was 12 for intense counseling.
12. I am scared to death of flying.
This is because when I was 5 I took my first plane trip and I was airsick the entire trip, including in the damn airport. I know that subconsciously this is why I do not fly now.
13. I think I am the most boring person on the face of the Earth.
14. In response to stress from home and school, I dropped out of high school when I was 15, only to go back the next year, get all the way to May and drop out yet again.
15. When I was 16, my mother finally got up enough courage to get a restraining order against my dad because she "saw a look in your eyes that you were going to kill him if he stayed."
So happens that a week after she got it, he ended up in jail for 4 DUIs.
16. My father died while in the custody of San Bernardino County.
He had an ulcer that perforated and he went downhill from there while in the hospital.
17. At my father's funeral in 1992, I don't know if I was crying out of relief or sadness.
18. I actually found myself happy that he was gone.
If I could impart everything that my mother and I went through when he was alive, you would understand this. Granted, now that I am older, this is not the case.
19. I have only one best friend and I am happy about that.
20. My best friend and I really bonded over a mutual love of New Kids On The Block.
Don't ask...
21. Even though I caught my best friend lying on me when I was 14, I still forgave her.
22. I lied to a man and told him I was older than I was and had more sexual experience than I really did, just to get him to like me.
A low point in my life.
23. I am not afraid to admit that I love the Geico commercials with the cavemen.
24. My first major crush in high school is now gay.
25. I graduated from high school when I was 20.
I went to continuation school, I think that is it. Moved to an adult education school and got my diploma.
26. I was 20 when I got my driver's license.
27. My first car is still sitting in my mother's driveway broken down.
28. When I had my interim license, I and my bestest took my mom's car to cruise around town.
29. On more than one occasion, a friend and I snuck her mom's car out and drove around all night, only to have to come home and have to use the gascan to refill the tank.
30. I did not want to be a virgin when I turned 18.
Made the mistake of telling a friend this, who told a guy friend of hers, who told his friends...you get the picture.
31. I was 21 when I lost my virginity.
And I miss the person I slept with so much and he will never know much.
32. I was sexually assaulted when I was 18.
33. At one point, I was talking to 21 guys on the phone that I had met online.
34. One of those guys was my first regular phone sex friend.
35. One of those guys I fell in love with, but never got to meet.
36. His death last year affected me more than anything else then.
37. I am becoming more and more uncomfortable about sharing some of this stuff.
38. I met some random guy on a party line and had sex with him while his 3 year old son slept in another room.
39. I was involved with a married man.
40. I have had a booty call at 2 in the morning.
41. I used to work for GTE, when it was GTE.
42. I met a man who called to pay a friend's phone bill and fell in what I thought was love.
43. I have had sex in a model home while there were people walking around downstairs looking around.
44. I have been caught in a compromising situation by a cop.
45. I have given oral sex to a guy while he was driving down the freeway.
46. After I got pregnant, I found out that my son's father had a girlfriend who was 20 years older than me and she was three months pregnant.
47. I still have nudie pics of my son's father.
48. My son's father was disappointed that he had a son when he found out.
49. I feel like I have let my mother down.
50. I suffer from such extreme anxiety attacks that only my mom can help me to calm down.
51. My boyfriend of 4 years does not know the extent of said attacks and I have no plans to tell him.
52. I suffered through PPD after my son was born.
I ended up seeing a shrink and going on Prozac.
53. There are things about me that only my first lover knows.
Things other than carnal knowledge. Things my mother and best friend don't even know.
54. I constantly feel like I have let my son down.
55. I question whether or not I am a good mother.
56. I have had moments of wanting to strangle my child.
I have never actually gone through with this, but the thought scared me so much, I had to walk away and go somewhere to get away from him.
57. For a long time, my son beat me up.
I was embarrassed to wear short sleeves because my arms were all bruised up.
58. While I am comfortable with myself as a person, I have not been able to be comfortable with the way that I look.
I put up a good front, but I don't always feel like I belong or that I am pretty enough, thin enough, etc...
59. I have never told that to anyone.
60. I am a bitch.
61. I sometimes think that my boyfriend is not the one I am meant to spend my life with.
62. I like to be in control.
It might be the Leo in me.
63. I met my boyfriend and wasn't sure what I was feeling for him, so I put him through hell while I sorted out my feelings.
64. My boyfriend moved in without us ever having met in person.
This has to be the most risky thing I have ever done in my life.
65. After years of having to do for myself, I now have the luxury of a man that allows me to be spoiled.
66. When I first saw my boyfriend get off the bus, I wanted to have sex with him right there.
Too much info, I know...but it is the truth.
67. After being together for so long, I still wonder why he loves me.
68. I still have notes that my friends and I passed in class in Jr. High School.
69. I am 30, but I sometimes feel like I am 50.
70. Even though my sexlife is satisfying, I still find myself fantasizing about another man.
Don't a lot of men and women?
71. I have always wanted to be a writer, but I don't think that my stuff is prolific enough.
72. My son still smells like warm toast to me.
73. I was so scared about giving birth to my son that I had to go into counseling.
The therapist that I was seeing, gave me a phrase from the bible "Peace Be Still" which I said to myself over and over again while in labour.
74. I want to have another baby, but I am scared.
75. For so many years, I could not sit through a football game, but I learned to love it and can't wait for the new seasons to start.
76. I read Shakespeare for fun.
77. I feel like I grew up way to fast.
While other kids were playing barbies and G.I. Joe, I was reading The Color Purple.
78. I can't remember a moment in my life where I was ever truly and solely happy.
Even after my son was born, should have been one of the happiest moments of my life, and I was worrying about everything.
79. My favourite memory is sitting in my hospital room at 3 in the morning talking to my newborn son.
80. I love Venice Beach.
Even though I feel like I am from another country every time I go there.
81. I loved watching the sunset with my family in Santa Cruz.
Looked just like a post card. Huge sun and a sailboat sailing by...ah memories.
82. I believe in ghosts.
83. I love Birthday Cake ice cream.
Could only get it from Coldstone, and I have no clue if they even sell it anymore.
84. I moved out of my mom's house 4 years ago, and I still have thoughts of moving back home from time to time.
85. Even though I hate pain, I pierced my own ears 4 times.
86. My favourite guilty pleasure movie is Lord Of The G-Strings.
I so can't help this one. I laugh so much every time I watch it.
87. I often think that I was born into the wrong period of time.
88. I believe in reincarnation.
89. Although Baptist, I don't think that I have found a religion where I quite fit in.
90. I am scared of any person that can work the word fornicate in any form into the conversation.
91. I hate living so far away from my bestest.
92. I am still sad that I was not able to be at my bestest's wedding.
93. I am a purse hound.
Some women it's shoes, others it's clothes, me it's purses.
94. My favorite food are cripsy fish tacos from Del Taco.
There are days when I feel that I could just eat them all damn day long.
95. I have trouble being brutally honest with some people.
96. I still love blowing bubbles with my son.
97. I am obsessed with the game The Sims.
98. I have bought shoes that I fell in love with in the store, but felt differently when I got them home.
99. I carry a fortune cookie fortune in my purse that says your friends love all sides of your temperament.
I think this fortune is a total lie, but it makes me feel good.
100. I can think of a hundred more things to add to this list.
1. My biological mother was white and my father black.
My mother and her hubby were separated when she met my father. After she got pregnant, her hubby wanted her back but did not want a black child, so she put me up for adoption.
2. My adoption was made official a week before Thanksgiving in 1975.
My parents celebrated by going to see Jaws. Subsequently, I was given the nickname of Gumbo or Gums. Please don't ask.
3. Though my parents told me I was adopted at a young age, I never did find out information on my mom until I was 12.
4. I was almost kidnapped when I was about 8 at a friend's father's company picnic.
And a couple years later, the same man came to check a gas leak at my parent's house. Imagine my fear.
5. One of my babysitter's sons liked to have the kids do what I now call weird sexual torture on him.
Again, please do not ask. This is not something that I would want to get into.
6. When I was 5 I had to have an earring surgically removed from my ear.
Starter earrings and I had little stars. The entire star part of the earring went into my ear and could not be removed any other way.
7. I was baptized when I was 11 and I now wonder if that was really God speaking to me or if I made a mistake.
8. My father was a verbally abusive alcoholic.
Irony about that is, he worked for CPS, and would still verbally abuse me.
9. When I was 12 my next door neighbour died of emphysema and it affected me more than I thought it would.
10. I developed a really irrational and deep rooted fear of death and dying when I was 12 that I refused to go anywhere, including school.
11. I was put into a mental hospital when I was 12 for intense counseling.
12. I am scared to death of flying.
This is because when I was 5 I took my first plane trip and I was airsick the entire trip, including in the damn airport. I know that subconsciously this is why I do not fly now.
13. I think I am the most boring person on the face of the Earth.
14. In response to stress from home and school, I dropped out of high school when I was 15, only to go back the next year, get all the way to May and drop out yet again.
15. When I was 16, my mother finally got up enough courage to get a restraining order against my dad because she "saw a look in your eyes that you were going to kill him if he stayed."
So happens that a week after she got it, he ended up in jail for 4 DUIs.
16. My father died while in the custody of San Bernardino County.
He had an ulcer that perforated and he went downhill from there while in the hospital.
17. At my father's funeral in 1992, I don't know if I was crying out of relief or sadness.
18. I actually found myself happy that he was gone.
If I could impart everything that my mother and I went through when he was alive, you would understand this. Granted, now that I am older, this is not the case.
19. I have only one best friend and I am happy about that.
20. My best friend and I really bonded over a mutual love of New Kids On The Block.
Don't ask...
21. Even though I caught my best friend lying on me when I was 14, I still forgave her.
22. I lied to a man and told him I was older than I was and had more sexual experience than I really did, just to get him to like me.
A low point in my life.
23. I am not afraid to admit that I love the Geico commercials with the cavemen.
24. My first major crush in high school is now gay.
25. I graduated from high school when I was 20.
I went to continuation school, I think that is it. Moved to an adult education school and got my diploma.
26. I was 20 when I got my driver's license.
27. My first car is still sitting in my mother's driveway broken down.
28. When I had my interim license, I and my bestest took my mom's car to cruise around town.
29. On more than one occasion, a friend and I snuck her mom's car out and drove around all night, only to have to come home and have to use the gascan to refill the tank.
30. I did not want to be a virgin when I turned 18.
Made the mistake of telling a friend this, who told a guy friend of hers, who told his friends...you get the picture.
31. I was 21 when I lost my virginity.
And I miss the person I slept with so much and he will never know much.
32. I was sexually assaulted when I was 18.
33. At one point, I was talking to 21 guys on the phone that I had met online.
34. One of those guys was my first regular phone sex friend.
35. One of those guys I fell in love with, but never got to meet.
36. His death last year affected me more than anything else then.
37. I am becoming more and more uncomfortable about sharing some of this stuff.
38. I met some random guy on a party line and had sex with him while his 3 year old son slept in another room.
39. I was involved with a married man.
40. I have had a booty call at 2 in the morning.
41. I used to work for GTE, when it was GTE.
42. I met a man who called to pay a friend's phone bill and fell in what I thought was love.
43. I have had sex in a model home while there were people walking around downstairs looking around.
44. I have been caught in a compromising situation by a cop.
45. I have given oral sex to a guy while he was driving down the freeway.
46. After I got pregnant, I found out that my son's father had a girlfriend who was 20 years older than me and she was three months pregnant.
47. I still have nudie pics of my son's father.
48. My son's father was disappointed that he had a son when he found out.
49. I feel like I have let my mother down.
50. I suffer from such extreme anxiety attacks that only my mom can help me to calm down.
51. My boyfriend of 4 years does not know the extent of said attacks and I have no plans to tell him.
52. I suffered through PPD after my son was born.
I ended up seeing a shrink and going on Prozac.
53. There are things about me that only my first lover knows.
Things other than carnal knowledge. Things my mother and best friend don't even know.
54. I constantly feel like I have let my son down.
55. I question whether or not I am a good mother.
56. I have had moments of wanting to strangle my child.
I have never actually gone through with this, but the thought scared me so much, I had to walk away and go somewhere to get away from him.
57. For a long time, my son beat me up.
I was embarrassed to wear short sleeves because my arms were all bruised up.
58. While I am comfortable with myself as a person, I have not been able to be comfortable with the way that I look.
I put up a good front, but I don't always feel like I belong or that I am pretty enough, thin enough, etc...
59. I have never told that to anyone.
60. I am a bitch.
61. I sometimes think that my boyfriend is not the one I am meant to spend my life with.
62. I like to be in control.
It might be the Leo in me.
63. I met my boyfriend and wasn't sure what I was feeling for him, so I put him through hell while I sorted out my feelings.
64. My boyfriend moved in without us ever having met in person.
This has to be the most risky thing I have ever done in my life.
65. After years of having to do for myself, I now have the luxury of a man that allows me to be spoiled.
66. When I first saw my boyfriend get off the bus, I wanted to have sex with him right there.
Too much info, I know...but it is the truth.
67. After being together for so long, I still wonder why he loves me.
68. I still have notes that my friends and I passed in class in Jr. High School.
69. I am 30, but I sometimes feel like I am 50.
70. Even though my sexlife is satisfying, I still find myself fantasizing about another man.
Don't a lot of men and women?
71. I have always wanted to be a writer, but I don't think that my stuff is prolific enough.
72. My son still smells like warm toast to me.
73. I was so scared about giving birth to my son that I had to go into counseling.
The therapist that I was seeing, gave me a phrase from the bible "Peace Be Still" which I said to myself over and over again while in labour.
74. I want to have another baby, but I am scared.
75. For so many years, I could not sit through a football game, but I learned to love it and can't wait for the new seasons to start.
76. I read Shakespeare for fun.
77. I feel like I grew up way to fast.
While other kids were playing barbies and G.I. Joe, I was reading The Color Purple.
78. I can't remember a moment in my life where I was ever truly and solely happy.
Even after my son was born, should have been one of the happiest moments of my life, and I was worrying about everything.
79. My favourite memory is sitting in my hospital room at 3 in the morning talking to my newborn son.
80. I love Venice Beach.
Even though I feel like I am from another country every time I go there.
81. I loved watching the sunset with my family in Santa Cruz.
Looked just like a post card. Huge sun and a sailboat sailing by...ah memories.
82. I believe in ghosts.
83. I love Birthday Cake ice cream.
Could only get it from Coldstone, and I have no clue if they even sell it anymore.
84. I moved out of my mom's house 4 years ago, and I still have thoughts of moving back home from time to time.
85. Even though I hate pain, I pierced my own ears 4 times.
86. My favourite guilty pleasure movie is Lord Of The G-Strings.
I so can't help this one. I laugh so much every time I watch it.
87. I often think that I was born into the wrong period of time.
88. I believe in reincarnation.
89. Although Baptist, I don't think that I have found a religion where I quite fit in.
90. I am scared of any person that can work the word fornicate in any form into the conversation.
91. I hate living so far away from my bestest.
92. I am still sad that I was not able to be at my bestest's wedding.
93. I am a purse hound.
Some women it's shoes, others it's clothes, me it's purses.
94. My favorite food are cripsy fish tacos from Del Taco.
There are days when I feel that I could just eat them all damn day long.
95. I have trouble being brutally honest with some people.
96. I still love blowing bubbles with my son.
97. I am obsessed with the game The Sims.
98. I have bought shoes that I fell in love with in the store, but felt differently when I got them home.
99. I carry a fortune cookie fortune in my purse that says your friends love all sides of your temperament.
I think this fortune is a total lie, but it makes me feel good.
100. I can think of a hundred more things to add to this list.
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Comments for 100 Things About Me...
Wow, what a list. Most I knew, some I didn't and more still I didn't know I didn't know (or don't know?) LOL. I wish I could comment on each single thing! We sure have come a long way baby. I totally have more that I want to add to my list like the night Bobby came back to visit us and we were in pj's creeping down the hallway... hehe or the time you took time out just to try and find Clay and Scott (found Clay!) for me. Wow, so many things, hehe.
Ohhhh what about the time that we called the late night DJ of that radio station and he had the hot voice! I can't remember if we ended up talking to him more than once or not.